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Monday, November 21st, 2005
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9:00 pm
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I figured i dont really make a lot of happy posts. So, here is a happy one.
I have no worries right now at all. I'm just floating along with the Counting Crows and looking forward to thanksgiving break, which starts tomorrow. I cant wait to see everyone again.
This homemade mocha is quite good...a good ratio or coffe to chocolate.
Content
yeah
current mood:  cheerful
current music: Counting Crows
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| Thursday, November 10th, 2005
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11:28 pm
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| Monday, June 13th, 2005
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9:42 pm - tonight with the sea and the salty breeze
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The last three hours of my life were quite awesome. I really enjoyed them and they made me think a lot.
current music: Iron and Wine - What I always fall asleep to
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| Monday, May 30th, 2005
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11:14 pm - when sudden depression strikes...
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Here's a damn update for you. FUCK! And thanks. At least i get to freaking bore myself to death tomorrow at work. :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)
why do i even care?
current mood: fuck!
current music: it doesnt matter
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2:17 am
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so i just had one of the best conversations ever. my mood went from not so great to a lot better to scared to feeling understood to feeling sad again and back to happy and all over the place. but, it ended with being pretty good and mainly just because of the entire conversation with the person. i think should have talked to this person a lot more before. it seems we have some things to learn from each other or just some sort of understanding.
i dont know what more to say, other than thanks to that person. im not sure why im being so vague on the persons name, but i think i will continue to do so since i already have thus far, hehe.
i feel like crying
current mood: wanting to cry but i cant
current music: random itunes
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| Saturday, May 28th, 2005
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4:03 pm - ive got a funny feeling
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Thanks for the concern in the previous posts everyone. I have an idea, an idea that has me quite excited. I've told a few people quite a bit about it, in as much depth as i've currently figured out. It's a story i want to write, although im not a writer, i feel i need to write this, if for nothing more than my own sake and sanity. For anyone who cares, its about the end of the universe. All of humanity will find out that the universe is going to end in 8 days, and i want to explore what happens to the various characters i come up with. I want to see what they do with their last 8 days, and thus truly explore the monotony of life. I have quite a few characters in mind already, but if anyone has any comments as to what they would do knowing that you only had 8 more days to live and then the whole universe would be gone, i would be quite appreciative if you told me. I wont say more about the story as of right now, but i may post selections of it later. I've currently written about 3 pages, which has only covered part of the first conversation in the story. I know this isnt exactly the most uplifting of subjects to make me feel better, but, its working so far.
I'm still pretty damn confused, but currently it doesnt matter with this story in mind.
Oh, and i had one of the greatest dreams ever last night. :)
Also, i think something needs to be done. so, im gonna try and accomplish it. (i know, very vague.)
Singing is awesome.
current mood: cheerful mostly
current music: Reel Big Fish - Cheer Up
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| Wednesday, May 25th, 2005
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11:06 pm - look
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Look at me go
look at me go
look at me go!
I'm way up high
on a plateau.
look at me go
look at me go
look at me go!
I'm floating so high
but im feeling so low.
look at me go
look at me go
look at me go!
If i continue like this
then everyone will know.
look at me go
look at me go
look at me go!
I need a drink
cause its been too long ago.
look at me go
look at me go
look at me go!
So many thoughts
I dont know how to show.
look at me go
look at me go
look at me go!
I think its about over though.
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10:38 pm
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i dont know anything anymore. and im getting sick of it. i cant figure anything out, and once i think i do, 10 seconds later i change my mind and have reversed my opinion. what to do and where to go? there really arent that many options, but each one being an extreme opposite of the others. i cant do this anymore. i need to figure something out. or be inspired. or learn something. all false hopes and pointless anyway.
damn click.
happiness, saddness, neutrality...it all doesnt matter any more.
its all just a lie.
current mood:  depressed
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| Monday, May 16th, 2005
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1:29 am - honorable suicide
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sucky suck sucky suck suck
forget it, i dont care. im not wasting time posting all this crap i was gonna say. better off in my head only.
current mood: depressed
current music: Counting Crows - Raining in Baltimore
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| Saturday, May 14th, 2005
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1:53 am - natural suicide
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 | You scored as Natural Causes. Your death will be by natural causes, though not by any diseaese, because that is another option on this test. You will probably just silently pass away in the night from old age, and people you love won't realize until the next morning, when you are all purple and cold and icky.
Suicide | | 80% | Natural Causes | | 80% | Posion | | 47% | Bomb | | 40% | Eaten | | 40% | Stabbed | | 33% | Gunshot | | 27% | Accident | | 27% | Suffocated | | 27% | Disappear | | 20% | Disease | | 13% | Drowning | | 13% | Cut Throat | | 7% | </td>
How Will You Die??
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i will die by natural suicide...whatever that is. but wow, is this not exciting? taking a quiz and having it tell you that you will kill yourself?
current mood: scrambled
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| Friday, May 13th, 2005
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9:23 pm
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So, i couldnt really decide whether or not to put this in xanga or livejournal, cause i kinda have a system worked out as to the appropriateness of the posts in each, but this one is kinda in the middle. Anyway, last night i woke up on the floor at my friends apartment and i was laying on my hand, er finger. my pinky finger to be exact. so, it was asleep and feeling funny. i figured it would go away soon enough and went back to sleep. i woke up about 2 hours later, and it was still asleep! ridiculous i say. anyway, i figured it would go away soon enough. it is now 11:25 at night...and my finger is STILL feeling like its asleep! what the hell?! this is like the weirdest thing ever!
in other news, i had a really good time tonight, but i still need to loosen up and let go...i guess that'll come with time. ok ok, not gonna ruin my good mood. this post is over!
current mood: good...but on the edge of bad
current music: itunes on random
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| Wednesday, May 11th, 2005
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11:03 pm - no ice cream
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So, i feel really seperated from everything right now, and thus lonely. its really quite strange. i also have these bad feelings rushing at me from nearly every direction. and im defintely finding it hard to concentrate, so im seeing double right now. i really dont know what to think anymore. im not tired, but i need to sleep. even my thoughts are seperate and disjointed. i cant really think straight right now...its like i have one solid thought, and then a whole bunch of chaos and noise going through my head, but none of it is intelligible. i want somebody to talk to, but nobody wants to talk. i want a drink...or 2 or 3 or 8. go ahead and hate me. im trying not to care, and i do it pretty well sometimes, but then it comes back. scrambled thoughts. lets play a game and see if anything fun pops out of my chaos...bear, scooter, fish, eyes, bomb, hate, slippers,...thats enough random words from my thoughts right now. think theres a connection? probably not tonight, everything is disconnected. the number you have reached has been disconnected.
yeah, so, since i finally realized what i just typed, if you can make sense out of it, more power to you.
no ice cream tonight but i ate too many cookies
current mood: disconnected and lonely
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| Tuesday, May 10th, 2005
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12:01 am - accidental suicide
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So, i'm only posting here right now because i accidentally hit the update journal button. So, i figured why not? i have nothing to say, other than my stomach hurts. oh yeah, and my previous post, about getting yelled at for coming home at 1240, my mom hardly rememberd it when i brought it up to her, and she said she didnt even look at the clock. she had no clue what she was talking about, and my dad was around when i said this to her, and he didnt care that i came in at that time, i think he was just upset that my mom woke him up. anyway, to avoid that situation again, i dont believe im going to go wake my mom up to tell her im home, that and i probably smell like smoke, gah. i only smoked that cigarette to make my stomach feel better (cause its been hurting since during the movie i just saw, the interpreter) and it still freakin hurts. the movie, as you may be wonder, or you may not, was pretty good. i saw it with mark. today, i also tried to find a job, which the two of my loyal readers on here already know, so thats enough of my daily life.
i still have nothing to say that is worthy of you taking your time to read...looking for something profound to say...still searching...ok, i give up, ive got nothing.
neptune is dead...plastered to a rock...what a way to go. when you just dont care enough anymore to stop yourself from melting to a rock.
so i finished reading mother night last night, it was pretty good...toward the end it made me think about life and why we should live it (yay existentialism). characters realize they have nothing left to live for, and when that happens, when they have no purpose to live for, they just give up. they seem to either kill themselves, or just stop moving, maybe because they dont have enough care left in them to go through with it, or maybe they dont have the courage (but i dont think its courage and its not quite just not caring, but i dont know how else to explain it.) there is a part in the book where one character asks another what she should live for, since the only thing she was living for was love, which has been taken away. she says she will live for anything he tells her to, even some random object so long as he tells her thats worth living for. he comes up with nothing...she dies.
heh, it came full circle, i knew there was a reason.
current mood: lonely
current music: the humming of nemo's (the turtle's) air filter
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| Sunday, May 8th, 2005
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12:59 am - gah
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Apparently when you are 20 years old and come home at 1240 at night on a freakin saturday night, it is too late.
current mood:  annoyed
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| Tuesday, May 3rd, 2005
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12:24 am
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fuck studying, im going to sleep. lets see how well completely winging a cumulative final goes...
i just realized how messed up these time stamps are...its 2:27 for those of you playing along
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| Sunday, May 1st, 2005
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10:12 pm - life
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My life, as of the not too distant past at least, can be best described through my action of shooting drews nerf gun at the ceiling repeatedly. The dart goes up, sticks to the ceiling for a second, sometimes two, then drops back down where i catch it and shoot it again. Sometimes it doesnt even stick. Sometimes i dont catch it and it falls further to the ground, which i then pick up and shoot at the ceiling again. Up and down it repeats. Someday it will either remain stuck to the ceiling, or it will fall to the ground and i will stop picking it up. As of this second, its on the floor.
current mood: depressed
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1:57 am
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so, i was thinking nobody was gonna show up, and then they did. and it was awesome :)
that was a lot of fun, the oasis=fuckin awesome because underage people can drink, but i think i just failed a friend, although i tried as hard as i could not to...hopefully i was right and all is well
now that its 4 in the morning and i didnt start drinking til 12, its time for bed i think cause i have nothing better to do.
i wish i had something profound to say right here, but ive got nothing. oh well
current mood:  drunk
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| Saturday, April 30th, 2005
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12:03 am
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| Friday, April 29th, 2005
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12:23 am - woah
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| Tuesday, April 26th, 2005
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10:42 pm - everyone else did it, so i did too
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<tr>
<td align="middle">INFJ - the counselor
You scored 0% I to E, 42% N to S, 42% F to T, and 42% J to P! </td></tr>
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<td>Your type is best summed up by the word "counselor", which belongs to the larger group of idealists. Only 2% of the population share your type. You are so empathic that you often know what others need before they know themselves. You are a complex person who can deal with complicated issues and people, almost prefer to, as you love problem solving. You can be something of an idealist or perfectionist, and should try to take yourself a little less seriously.
You are a supportive and insightful romantic partner, encouraging your mate to have dreams and work hard to make those dreams come true. Because you are so creative, you have a wealth of ideas to help them toward those goals. You need harmony so much that you are driven to resolve conflict quickly, as long as the terms don't violate your ethics. You feel the most appreciated when your partner admires your creativity, trusts your inspirations, and respects your values. It is also vitally important that your partner be open and emotionally available - in other words, that they be willing to share themselves completely.
Your group summary: idealists (NF)
Your type summary: INFJ
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My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 50% on N to S |
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You scored higher than 39% on F to T |
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Haha, i just realized that 3 of them are 42's...this may mean something to some people, or it may not
thanks for talking Charlotte
current mood: worried - on and off
current music: Iron and Wine
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